Evaluating my morals.

I followed most paths that my fellow students took– I was baptized and received my share of the Sacraments as I grew up. I grew up living under the natural law that we must follow God’s principles and laws given to us since the beginning of time. At the same time, I began to question some of the content in the Bible. It may sound sacraligious at first– and maybe it is– but I don’t consider it sacraligious because the prophets wrote the Bible and not God himself. The only document given to use by God were the Ten Commandments and I believe those ten commandments are the most solid and profound set of rules ever made since our planet was created.

We are often called to be “children” because they are pure at heart and distinctively know right from wrong. People have forgotten that children have no worries of tomorrow’s meal because they are supported by their parents. People have forgotten that children are completely oblivious to the insecurities and dangers of the world–and are often discouraged from being told these truths. Why are we called to act like children then? To be stepped all over and believe that we are still in a beautiful world? Should we really let others take everything away from us for their own benefit, even if they don’t need it, and still bless them? If this is considered “good”, then I believe there will also be more “evil”. That is, balance of the world, after all. 

As for our Catholic social teaching, what are they honestly trying to do in school? The first two years they skim through little chronicles of our lives, seeing if we are actually writing about what we’re supposed to, and giving us generally high marks. The third year, I took art religion which heavily depended on the symbolism in my art and how accurately I analyzed religion through art, which I believe I did well. Here I am, in my fourth and last year of taking religion and they are evaluating our morals. But hey, guess what I got for my morals? 75%. I must be a very bad person, huh?

But look at it this way, the story was about a woman who was given a job offer except the job offer had to do with animal testing. She is sensitive to animal cruelty apparently and does not know what to do because her the workforce hasn’t been very promising. She also has a lot of loans from the school and her parents. I ended up writing what I thought. Except the price of being honest is to obtain a 75%. And I’m not screwing with any of my courses, I’m trying extra hard this year for all my courses. I’m actually working so hard that I need a nap once I come home from school. Actually, I just fall asleep–I don’t even have a choice. So there are people out there who are unsatisfied with ther 85% for their unit, and you know, they aren’t honest people. Suckups to teachers, a bonus! If they are honestly trying to teach us to be better Christians, they really shouldn’t force students to lie. 

In any case, I’m saying this out of my rage and I don’t have all the time in the world to continue ranting. There are absolutely a lot of things that I question in religion but for now, it’ll be an area I don’t want to touch until tomorrow. I’ll see if I can extract any flaws in my work after consulting with the teacher, even though I see nothing wrong with the processes that I took to reach my own decision. Time will tell.

Players and Ex-Players

A few weeks ago, I met an “ex-player” who eventually started to like me. Whether this is true or not, I can’t tell at all. How do I know that he is still a player but using the title of an “ex-player” to play? In any case, I am constantly reminded that there is no need to be concerned with him because I already have a boyfriend. And I, wholeheartedly agree that I must devote myself to my boyfriend as he has devoted himself to me. A bit of drama happened here and there but the purpose of my entry today is to debate what separates a player and an ex-player.

You may think that an ex-player would stop playing once he’s experienced love. I have found evidence that players are capable of possessing both a lover they need and lovers they want. If they found out, the guy would only have to say “I want them but I need you.” Then there would be a question of his happiness being stripped from him because men apparently cannot practice abstinence according to him. The good girlfriend would probably not want to “strip” his happiness and remain with him. Of course, those girlfriends are probably dumb. Players also come in two types: successful and unsuccessful. These players take up a large percentage of men apparently. There is rarely a grey area. If you are a player, you either play a girl for whatever reason, be it lust or pity, or you have no girls. Both are equally desperate people in heart and usually take it to great lengths to build strong relationships with girls, hopefully acquiring a good catch. To prevent being played is impossible. Love itself is a risk.