My last chance.

In less than three months, I will be entering my last year of secondary school education. With this in mind, I reminisce back to the last year of elementary school; I was excited and proud to enter the next stage of my life. I don’t feel the same as I did. I’m feeling nervous and worried that my Gr. 11 grades will not be enough to get me early acceptance into that particular program in that particular university. But there is one last chance. The coming school year.

In preparation of the coming school year, I have planned my courses again.
I recall that I have signed up for all three mathematics courses, one business course, one law course, and one technological course. The mandatory courses were English and religion. I felt uneasy picking these courses because half of them (namely the maths) were courses that I did not find interest in. The technological course also seemed useless to me since I have already learnt the programs. The law course no longer interests me because a new teacher will be teaching it. Yes, I do not have very good impressions of new teachers. As for the business course, I intend to keep that in my list. In short, I think it’s important to take useful courses that interest us as a person-even in this time of distress and worry. As my teacher says, it’s free education, so why not? Well, it’s kind of free, excluding school, course, and activity fees. I wouldn’t dare to compare these to university tuitions though!

The courses that I have chosen for the upcoming year are:

Required
ENG4U1 – English
HZT4U1 – Philosophy

Electives
BAT4M1 – Principles of Financial Accounting
BOH4M1 – Organizational Behaviour & Human Resources
HFA4M1 – Food & Nutrition Sciences
HHG4M1 – Issues in Human Growth and Development
MCV4U1 – Calculus and Vectors
MHF4U1 – Advanced Functions

The course that I would like to talk about the most is philosophy. Yesterday, my father and I were discussing subjects. I personally believe that I hate the sciences with all my heart but my father insists that I still don’t know if I do or not. He says that I never really tried to pry into the sciences because I always thought negatively of them. He started to explain how the sciences could be very interesting-like why things are they way they are or why things are not the way they are. He spoke about how it could be intriguing how our stomach digests our food or something of the like. Before I continue, I find that extremely boring. The only science that could possibly interest me is astrology and even in school, I didn’t have a very good experience with it. Actually, my teacher emailed me and told me she liked my “webmaking skills” but all I did was create a blog for homework… Anyway, I started think about what interested me. I knew that science was definitely a no, but what would interest me? I remember reading Sparknotes one day about famous philosophers. I was amazed at their theories, and thus came my realization. My interest happens to be in philosophy! I felt proud to realize this interest but my father discouraged me, saying that philosophy can drive someone insane. Philosophy is a study that is based on ideas and beliefs, things that we cannot touch or measure. Because of this, my father believes that the people will become insane before they reach an answer. And I, being the stubborn child that I am, argued that scientists can easily become insane as well.

After all this talk about philosophy, I feel my goals waver. I don’t know what I would like to pursue anymore because the only career that I can think of at the end of the philosophical road is a professor. Perhaps I can study philosophy on the side and focus on business? This must be youth, when I have too much time to settle on one path. I don’t know if I should feel fortunate or not. In any case, my last chance is nearing.